My experience overall with this challenge was positive. It think it was a good exercise for a class that is centered around preparing us for our future. To make us actually take time and space to do something we've always wanted to was a good was to teach us about taking more control and responsibility for how our lives are. Because when will we make small changes in our busy 9-5 working days if we won't right now?

I was able to complete 14 sketches, and was drawing a total of 32 days out of 40. On days I didn't draw, well life happens. The best part for me was that these sketches weren't for anything. They weren't a product, something I was working to develop, or a way to get ahead. These sketches were for fun and a way to retrain myself in art and in discipline. I have stopped watching as much TV, and I'm getting up early and utilizing that time, because I'm a wreak by 8:30 pm anyway. I don't know if my drawing improved, but I feel like my observation skills are sharper and I'm less neurotic. Best of all I've gotten more inspired! 

I deeply miss my artwork. Throughout this blog I've questioned my direction and abilities, and keep ending up with few answers. How do I do both and where is that lane where I can, and get $$$? I've discovered a few things about where I see myself in the future and it definitely involves drawing in some capacity. I also see myself working with clients and other collaborators. While I do need space to work, I don't need that much!

Edit: Great article about design jobs!! 

Thank you for reading and being on the journey with me! 

If this was really how it looked it would be falling over. But I love it and I don't care that it's not the best! This was exactly what the challenge was about, drawing for fun, not for making a product. ​

Today was alright. Still low energy, but that little bit of unexpected time to myself was a nice way to start the week, and I even got to make a yummy dinner tonight!

I don't really have anything special to say on this 40th post, so expect some better introspection on my reflection post. ;)

I like this about me because I've never been this person before. But I also hate it because besides working on things I'm only looking for instant gratification instead of finding joy in everyday things like I used to. I miss cooking with zeal instead of scheduling working hour blocks around the time it takes to make dinner. Or just going with my gut when I want to jet up to a trail and hike. 

This may sound like complaining and it is, but it's aimed at myself. I'm the only one responsible for how I'm living my life and I'm not too happy with it right now. Even though I have no solution just yet I'm examining things and will hopefully reevaluate. 

I learned something else on this one, don't work with your sketchbook at an angle on your lap. It messed up how my eye saw the vertical lines and made the right side of the house crooked. I added some landscaping, but no shadows going over the house. I might one day, but I just didn't want to commit to it yet. 

I did not get to go play yesterday, which was disappointing. Work and school are my new way of life and I won't get to have fun until I graduate. Don't mind me, just a little pessimistic over here.

​​Suck it up.  ;D

Can I be done now? Where's my mom when I need a pat on the head and a "Good job! I know you worked so hard and did so well and you deserve a break! Here's some fresh cookies and I'll rub your feet. Oh, and don't worry about the dishes or what you're going to eat tomorrow, because it's all taken care of."