They say there is good stress and bad stress and our society has come to believe all stress is bad. I have been guilty of the fear of stress many times and have taken every precaution to avoid it, which means sitting very still. It's not only demoralizing but it takes away the will to do something about the cause of stress, good or bad.
I am now able to recognize the patterns that lead to a place of inaction. It's the sense that I'm overloaded and will never be able to catch up no matter how hard I work. This stems, for me, from looking at everything that must be done all at once and not breaking things down into bite-size chunks. I'm talking school yes, but also working, freelancing, and taking care of my home and body. There's no way to fit in everything everyday, and that is something I'm learning to accept.
I'll be honest, there was nothing that I would rather do today than sleep in and not make this drawing. But I was seeing it as another thing on a long to-do list and not for what it's meant to be. Getting up early to draw something purely for the sake of drawing is time for myself. It's my meditation, my way to fire up the brain through observation, problem solving, and creativity.
Here is my commitment to myself: This is my time. It's not extra space in my day for concept drawing for work or school. I will protect this time from the invasive species that is worry, anxiety, and dread.
This was not meant to be a long post, but I'm basically giving myself a pep-talk to start the day. "You can do it!"
I'm an illustrator and graphic designer who is desperate to get back to the basics of pencil and paper! I'm challenging myself to sketch everyday for 40 days in hopes of regaining my overall skill, creativity, and wonder!